Please indulge me a little personal time to answer that
question.
I sure appreciate all of the
genuine inquiries as to how we are coping with our forced exile in North Dakota . Several
folks have taxt (past tense for text),
called and some have emailed.
If you do not know what I am talking about you can catch up HERE?
They have read the blog, heard me
say all the right things and are glad to know we are in a safe place and that
we doing OK.
But friends want to know, Davy,
how are you really doing? Do you
have diesel? Do you have money for food? How big of a hole is this going to put
you in?
First of all, thank you very
much. I appreciate your concern. It is very nice to be loved. I have had
friends and family offer to send us money right away. In fact, at least two
friends have called without even knowing about the cancellation and have
immediately offered to help if we needed it.
You do not know how much your
offers mean to me even though I have not accepted them. God bless you for it.
God knows there have been times when it was different.
There have been literally dozens
of times that we have traveled a long distance to preach revival and arrived
without enough money in our pockets or in the bank to buy Happy Meals for the
three of us. We made it just fine in those times and I trust we will make it
just fine this time by God’s grace.
We planned this trip as a mission
endeavor from the beginning. We had no specific money given for this trip but
we have saved for it. We wanted to help the Martin’s with some of their
expenses and we wanted to have an offering for the local church as well. We
wanted to have enough fuel money to get us from Washington ,
Illinois to North Dakota
and then down to Wichita , Kansas . Even though we were not fully funded
in all of these things, we were close enough that we will survive, barring any big
surprises.
It overwhelms me that so many
have asked and offered to help. I know that many were not offering help out of
excess funds but you were willing to do without in order to bail us out. God
bless you for that. As I have told several, “I am sure that you or somebody you
know can use it worse than we can right now. I will call you when I need it.” (Although they know I probably will not call
if that day ever comes.)
The real problem is what to do
with the time and how do I process all of this emotionally? I am not allergic
to vacations and time off as some in ministry seem to be. I cherish time with
my family away from the pulpit and the pull of the formal ministry. I need it.
I must have it. Thank God for friends and mentors that have taught me that I
must have rest to survive and thrive long term.
However, I must prepare for it.
Give me a stretch of five days off and 3-6 months to get ready for it and those
five days will be wonderful. I will be in a campground, or cabin or motel; it
does not really matter. I will sleep, eat, read, write, pray, visit with my
girls and do as little of anything else that I can get by with legally.
I will not plan breakfast, lunch
or supper. I will not make plans to meet anybody or talk to anybody on the
phone. I want no appointments. I will eat lunch when the mood strikes. I will
eat whatever sounds good at the moment. I will make a call or answer a call and
talk 2 minutes or an hour, when I feel like it. I will send calls to voicemail
if I would rather read, sleep or eat.
I will hold hands and walk with
Kelly Jo. We will go to Waffle House at midnight or eat fried chicken for
breakfast. We will live on no schedule at all until the very last moment of the
very last day of our time away. Kelly Jo and Odie will notice me slipping back into
my normal routine about 36 hours before we need to hit the road but I will
resist it with everything in me.
As I said, those are scheduled
days off. I have prepared for those days. I am in the right state mentally and
physically in those times. I have built those days off into the system months
or even years ahead of time. Right now we are planning 5 days off in October
and anticipating small breaks next year and the year after.
But to have those days thrust on
me when I am prepared to preach, itching to minister, ready to set up the tent
or carry in the sound system, is a completely different story. It throws me for
a loop when I am prepared to do what I do in the ministry and then to have 5
idle days cast upon me. Especially when it happened in North Dakota .
In other unexpected times off, I am going some where else to preach. I am
taking advantage of an invitation in the area that I had previously turned down
because of lack of time. I am preaching another revival or preaching there
Sunday, here Tuesday and over there on Wednesday.
But I know NOBODY in North Dakota . I know
NOBODY between here and Omaha
over 600 miles away. There was no place to sing, no place to preach, no place
to attend service and hear preaching beyond the blessing of Sunday morning
service in Ft. Totten .
Can you say “Forced Rest?” I
quickly came to the conclusion that is what was being spoken to me. Use this
time, Davy, to rest. Yes, I have looked for and found opportunities this week
to witness. Yes, I have taken time to listen to people in this campground and
in this community as they pour their heart out to a stranger. Yes, I have had
some real special times of prayer and study.
But I have shifted gears and
tried to enjoy the rest. I know it seems easy but it really has not been easy
for me. I love to preach, I love to sing and I love to evangelize. But I
thought things over. I am a list person. Here is my list…
1. How often will I ever be
parked in a beautiful state park in North
Dakota on a lake with 50 amp electric for $20-25 per
night? I am setting inside typing while
looking at a lake. Come on, Davy, use your noggin for something besides a hat
rack.
2. How often will I have a
gorgeous lake as my chapel each morning for several days in a row and have time
to enjoy God’s presence with no pressure to preach that night? I could get used to this one even during
revival.
3. How often will I spend the
last several days of July with brilliant sunshine but temps in the upper 60s
during the day and upper 40s at night? Can
you believe that we have not had the AC on in days?
4. How often will I have my family
with me, with no obligations or appointments, with no mechanical breakdowns and
no rush to leave… in North Dakota ?
I mean it took me 46 years to get here
the first time.
5. How often will I get the
opportunity to turn a conversation about Walleye, Northern Pike, Perch, lake
levels, water temperature and boats into a conversation about eternal life and
Christ? That has been fun.
How often will all of these
things converge into one totally “unplanned” week? The answer; probably never
again in my whole life?
But if all of these things do
happen at one time again, I hope I will be quicker to see the hand of God and sit back and
enjoy the show!
Today we travel.
God bless you all.
Davy
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